Simple Faith

As I sit in the comfort of my own home, I wrestle with the thought "DO I, or do I not blog about this'...as of late- I have been very busy.  No, not in the sense of having things up every evening...but in the sense that my mind has felt extremely full and busy and I do not know what to do with all of it.  It seems as though 'old techniques' of journal-ling, going for walks, and just talking-do not seem to do it for me anymore.  That said, the DO still help and I know I need to do more of that all-yet at the same time...there is this thirst, this longing in me for something more.

Sad thing is though, is that I know what I need/should do.  Its really quite simple...yet because of the 'noise' in my brain and the distractions around me (ie this computer, cell, the tv just to name a few), I simply cannot  wont, do it.

Like I said, these  is this thirst, this longing inside of me for something more-something greater.  Yes I KNOW the Truth and I know where I stand in regards to my faith.  I know God loves me with an unending love (Jeremiah 31:3).  I know that, through Him all things are possible and that He works the good in all things for those that believe (Romans 8:28)....

so why is it so hard then for me to sit down, relax and READ HIS Word?

They say that the best way to get to know someone is by spending time with the person...and getting to know God, well the same thing must happen as well.  God knows US inside and out--scripture makes that clear-but do we really know Him?  At this point, I am NOT looking for a 'spiritual debate' or some major discussion on theology of life or anything of that matter.  I want to just be able to believe and spend time with my Creator.  I want to be able to willingly to go the bible and approach it with a JOY, with an awe of wanting/craving to know God.  I want to become 'like a child' and have yet again, a 'child like' faith.

I want a simple faith.

A faith where I know God loves me no matter what.

I want a faith like my grandma's...who doesn't have a BA in Biblical studies.  Who didn't analyze scripture inside and out..looking at the Greek, Hebrew and Arabic meaning of a word.  A faith where when it says,

 "But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." (2 Corinthians 12:9)

 and

“I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with unfailing kindness."
(Jeremiah 31:3)

 If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29 

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4 

A simple faith.  That is what I want.

 

*Disclaimer- by a 'simple faith', I am in NO way meaning to 'put God in a box', nor do I "fully understand Him' cause that was, and is not, the purpose of this post at all.  None of us can/or should underestimate/overestimate God.  He is too great for us.  I just want to get to a point in my own walk with Him, where I realize that I never will "know everything" and to just be OKAY with that...to simple rest in His presence and Grace.  To allow His love to substain me.*