Had a good day, admists the craziness, sadness of this past week (its been a heavy week....) I was encouraged today by a friend and a nice cold ice capp from tims! I love having solid Christian friends to whom I can take my thoughts, questions and yes even doubts, too and know I will get an honest reply back from. Friends that I know love and care for me and share the same faith I do. I am So thankful for them.God has blessed me incrediablly with them in my life. Thanks does not seem enough to say! Even through all thats gone on, through all that will go on now and in days to come-God has given me this incredible peace that I dont understand, but that I know will only come from Him (and prayers from those around me to Him). Like although the questions are there, my heart is at peace-unlike other times when questions have been there and my heart was restless-not cool. I thank God for that too.
Thank you for who you are God. For what you are doing IN and through me. Thank you for your love and grace during this time of incredible need and desire. "In you I am complete"
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
God Moment
so just to clarify, I am NOT having a "faith crisis" here-cause it may sound like I am, but I am not (3 in a life time is enough for me thanks!) I know God loves me, i really do-these are just some thoughts in my head thats all. Speaking about God's love for me/us-I want to share with you a "God" moment that just happend like 15 minutes a go. I was skyping with my brother,with facebook still up and a friend from bible college my first year pops up and sends me a short "You know that God loves you eh?" message on chat. Keep in mind this is a friend who I actually have not talked to for quite some time, so she has no idea these thoughts on love/God's love are going through my head. So she was already signed off so i texted her and said thanks and what prompted her to mention that? She said it was, "God Prompting :D" CRAZY eh? If that right there is not a display of love, I dont know what is!!
God you are so good! Thank you for loving me so! Though I may not fully understand this love, all i can do is lift my hands up and give you praise! Thank you God! I love you!
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| All praises to HIM! |
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Is God just?
On the eve of my 23rd birthday...ok on the night before my 23rd bday, along with 3 weeks till take off for Africa, I must ask myself-Is Our God, a just God? how can a God who is loving, compassionate, knows every single hair on our heads at any moment, creator of heaven and Earth, split the red sea for the israelites to cross, sent His ONLY son to die for me and you...still...is He just? The Lord of Earth and Heaven, creator of all things? Would our God, who is all those things and so much more...allow an 8 year old girl to be scarred the way she is? Both physicall and emotionally/meantally (i assume as well) for the rest of her life?
Does He love us so?
Yes, tho some days its hard to believe, I believe God is just and when it says he will hand out punishments in His due time, I have no choice but to believe Him.I mean after all, He knew us even before we exsisted in our mothers wombs...
But how do you explain that to the 8 year old? How does one show God's love to her? words? actions? nothing at all?
what do I do whenI see her face to face, hold her, talk with her? Do I tell her things will be alright? that God loves her regardless of what happend? How will she respond? Laugh at me? Laugh at God? cry? smile? Will she look at me and say something that is way beyond her years? words that can and will only be spoken by Our God, through a small child?
Lots going on in my head right now..in regards to this....Am I ready for africa? to meet this girl? here her story and many others? to see the physical pain? No...I never could be ready...but by the grace of God alone..I will be, I have to be. HE will carry me through just like He led that girl to be saved.
with under 2 hours left before another number gets added to my age..hwo will these thoughts and questions..change my 23 rd year of my life? How will they shape it? How will God use this girl to mold me? What will happen in my 23rd year of life?
perhaps I should just stop asking God these questions and just trust him (after all, He did create the world in 7 days and saw that it was good, until we messed it up-another story for another time). Perhaps I should just hold loved ones a little tighter...to rejoice and send the praise back to where its due-back to God.
"God, thank you so much for life and although I do not understand it sometimes, I can not do anything but trust you wilth it. You know me. You know my heart, the good the bad and everything in between. You know me inside and out. Shape me, mold me into a better image of you. Use me God, to be a light for you on to this world. Go before me. Set my path. Open my eyes to the peopel who I will meet in Zambia...both while there and even on the planes. Bless them, through me. Break my heart for what breaks yours. BE that point of indifference. Help me to remember that really, all I have is YOU and that is enough. Thank you for loving me the way you do, even tho i dont deserve it. Thank you for your Grace!!"
Does He love us so?
Yes, tho some days its hard to believe, I believe God is just and when it says he will hand out punishments in His due time, I have no choice but to believe Him.I mean after all, He knew us even before we exsisted in our mothers wombs...
But how do you explain that to the 8 year old? How does one show God's love to her? words? actions? nothing at all?
what do I do whenI see her face to face, hold her, talk with her? Do I tell her things will be alright? that God loves her regardless of what happend? How will she respond? Laugh at me? Laugh at God? cry? smile? Will she look at me and say something that is way beyond her years? words that can and will only be spoken by Our God, through a small child?
Lots going on in my head right now..in regards to this....Am I ready for africa? to meet this girl? here her story and many others? to see the physical pain? No...I never could be ready...but by the grace of God alone..I will be, I have to be. HE will carry me through just like He led that girl to be saved.
with under 2 hours left before another number gets added to my age..hwo will these thoughts and questions..change my 23 rd year of my life? How will they shape it? How will God use this girl to mold me? What will happen in my 23rd year of life?
perhaps I should just stop asking God these questions and just trust him (after all, He did create the world in 7 days and saw that it was good, until we messed it up-another story for another time). Perhaps I should just hold loved ones a little tighter...to rejoice and send the praise back to where its due-back to God.
"God, thank you so much for life and although I do not understand it sometimes, I can not do anything but trust you wilth it. You know me. You know my heart, the good the bad and everything in between. You know me inside and out. Shape me, mold me into a better image of you. Use me God, to be a light for you on to this world. Go before me. Set my path. Open my eyes to the peopel who I will meet in Zambia...both while there and even on the planes. Bless them, through me. Break my heart for what breaks yours. BE that point of indifference. Help me to remember that really, all I have is YOU and that is enough. Thank you for loving me the way you do, even tho i dont deserve it. Thank you for your Grace!!"
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Africa, Youth, ministry, self image, Child of God
Today is March 12...its cold and snowy out..hmm...did not see that coming!! *scratches head* well that is life I guess...but oh the days of summer...but speaking of summer (sort of) Zambia, Africa is 26 days away! wow...ok for those that do not know...I am going to Africa with a team from my Church..working with Seeds of Hope Children's ministry...a school/orphange for kids with/affected by aids/HIV. Here is a blurb of an email I recently sent out to prayer warriors...
Recently, God has been teaching me to hear His voice and to listen to Him through a friend. Her dedication and commitment to God blows me away ever time we chat. The life she lives, the trust she has in God as He leads her and her family in their next steps, is a challenge and witness to me. (You know who you are...thank you!) As I may have mentioned in an earlier email, I am not sure why God laid this trip on my heart instantly but He did and now, as 'take off' is a month away...there are many different mixed feelings and events going on. Yes, we are still doing the physical prep work (meetings, shots etc)but for me, also mentally. Example: at our last meeting-the issue of AIDS/HIV came up (as we will be exposed to people/kids with it) and it occurred to me some of the potential danger we are putting ourselves in. Now, for those of you on the mission field...you know what I am talking about as you deal/live with it daily, however for myself, it is a new realization that took place. Also recently, during church Sunday worship services, we have been going through the book of Matthew (specifically chapter 10) and in it, Jesus states how the world will view us (followers of Christ), and how serving God is not 'a walk in the park'. In fact, if we are not being challenged, and yes even facing danger-what ever that sorts-one must ask ourselves...'are we really following Christ?", That said, we do not all have to leave our homes and venture off to a third world country. In fact...for some of us, it maybe the call to prayer for a complete stranger on a bus in Winnipeg, or even, a classmate. To perhaps love that annoying kid or neighbour next door. To watch our own tongues at work and school. The question is..do we do it? Or do we let it slip by? After all, if we deny Christ here on earth...He will/may deny us when we stand alone before Him at eternity.
Something to think about eh?
On to youth-youth continues to go well and learning lots there as well! (a few pics in earlier post!) I was reminded today of the struggles our youth face...not only that but of the images/struggles we face as well. Talk about peer presure, especially as young females trying to live for Christ. The images we are bombarded with, the status that media makes "the perfect body" to be, the pressures that youth face today. Even since I have graduated, things have changed SO much in the last 5 years. I have started a book called "lies Young women believe" and although I have just started it, it has made some really good points and has gotten me thinking. I can relate to some of it, yet other-the concepts are foreign. The two go side and side in side with beign a Child of God. ESPECIALLY nowadays, we need to refirm our youth-to remind them about the truth. About GOD'S truth and His truth alone! It is a daily battle, and we need a constant reminder of God's love for us!
So say to yourself..I am a Child of God. He loves me SO very much. Yes I will fail, and I will fall but He will never let me go. he loves me for who I am!!
Peace out blog world!
Recently, God has been teaching me to hear His voice and to listen to Him through a friend. Her dedication and commitment to God blows me away ever time we chat. The life she lives, the trust she has in God as He leads her and her family in their next steps, is a challenge and witness to me. (You know who you are...thank you!) As I may have mentioned in an earlier email, I am not sure why God laid this trip on my heart instantly but He did and now, as 'take off' is a month away...there are many different mixed feelings and events going on. Yes, we are still doing the physical prep work (meetings, shots etc)but for me, also mentally. Example: at our last meeting-the issue of AIDS/HIV came up (as we will be exposed to people/kids with it) and it occurred to me some of the potential danger we are putting ourselves in. Now, for those of you on the mission field...you know what I am talking about as you deal/live with it daily, however for myself, it is a new realization that took place. Also recently, during church Sunday worship services, we have been going through the book of Matthew (specifically chapter 10) and in it, Jesus states how the world will view us (followers of Christ), and how serving God is not 'a walk in the park'. In fact, if we are not being challenged, and yes even facing danger-what ever that sorts-one must ask ourselves...'are we really following Christ?", That said, we do not all have to leave our homes and venture off to a third world country. In fact...for some of us, it maybe the call to prayer for a complete stranger on a bus in Winnipeg, or even, a classmate. To perhaps love that annoying kid or neighbour next door. To watch our own tongues at work and school. The question is..do we do it? Or do we let it slip by? After all, if we deny Christ here on earth...He will/may deny us when we stand alone before Him at eternity.
Something to think about eh?
On to youth-youth continues to go well and learning lots there as well! (a few pics in earlier post!) I was reminded today of the struggles our youth face...not only that but of the images/struggles we face as well. Talk about peer presure, especially as young females trying to live for Christ. The images we are bombarded with, the status that media makes "the perfect body" to be, the pressures that youth face today. Even since I have graduated, things have changed SO much in the last 5 years. I have started a book called "lies Young women believe" and although I have just started it, it has made some really good points and has gotten me thinking. I can relate to some of it, yet other-the concepts are foreign. The two go side and side in side with beign a Child of God. ESPECIALLY nowadays, we need to refirm our youth-to remind them about the truth. About GOD'S truth and His truth alone! It is a daily battle, and we need a constant reminder of God's love for us!
So say to yourself..I am a Child of God. He loves me SO very much. Yes I will fail, and I will fall but He will never let me go. he loves me for who I am!!
Peace out blog world!
Few pics
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| Shayna and I at the 50+ crokinale tourny! |
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| The winners! |
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| Foundue night goodies! |
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| Lovely ladies over for fondue! |
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