It is September 1 and it is the first year since fall 2007 that I am NOT preparing to go back to SBC for another year...what a wierd feeling!! its gonna take a while to process I think..umm no, actually I know it will take a while to think about and to once again, realize that I will not be going back... Right now, if I could I would be going back...again, I am amazed at by how much I am missing it. but I need to ask myself, why am I missing it? What are my motives? Do i want to go back just cause its comfortable there? becasue I love it there, and the people? good reasons yes, but that doesnt make them right. It is time to move on. not forget, just continue on with life. Part of the thing that will be hard, is knowing what I will be missing. last night, i was upstairs and like asleep by 10:45 but I caught myself thinking that that if i were going back to school..10:45 bed time is un heard of in dorm! people ar ejust getting going then and there I was, going to bed..having to work 10 hours the next day...wow do things change. I am going to miss the community..the people, walking in the halls..talking to the profs...causeing a little trouble and all....I am going to missing "giving" there...
That said, I am getting more and more excited for fall! Working on plans to move out and live together with a friend here in town (which would be a whole NEW adventure..little nervous bout it, but should be good!) and so looking forward to getting involveed with youth and the girls there and just giving back... It will be good to be around the community and to reconnect here and give back. The response from people when they find out I will be sticking around, has seemed good, so excited about that. Work wont always go good (in fact, today it sucked) but such is life. I am learning (always learnign) to lean on prayer and talk to God throughout the day at work, and that is helping. I know God is here. Although I will miss school and that life, i gotta live here in the present. Take things as they come. Strive to live Christ like...
pray for me k? that I wll be able to do that this fall and beyound..and to let God take control, to realize that yes SBC was amazing, it happend but this is here, this is now.
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Wednesday, September 01, 2010
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Influence
So my 5th semester at school is officially wrapped up and I am already on my like 4th day of Christmas holidays! Crazy!! Like seriously...where does the time all go? How to sum up this past semester, I really have no idea...there were a lot of ups and downs (but mainly ups). Once again, God taught me way more then I was expecting. At teh start of the year, I knew God would teach me, show me, stretch me, but I didnt know he would in the ways he did. Yah, I dont even know where to start. How about the last 2 and a half years...
when I look at where I was when I started going to school...to where I am now...WOW wow WOW! that is what all really comes to mind! I know I have grown and changed in so many ways...the biggest being "People" if that makes sense. let me explain. People have come to REALLY matter to me and I know this may sound crazy and even a little wierd...but there was a point when they didnt. I was 100% content with being by myself but now..though I am still an introvert at heart..have discovered that people really DO make life worth living and oh so much more interesting.
At the start of this semester though...I was once again content with NOT branching out and meeting new people. My heart =just could not give anymore after my summer of meeting new people tehn being forced to say bye and with a lot of them...never see again (thinking Ukraine). I wanted to just hang tou with returning students and reconnect and further those friendships, which is what I was doing and doing just fine for like the first month and a bit of school..but as per usual, God had other plans and that soon changed. Since then I have met AMAZING people at school, have been stretched, challenged and loved by them. has it always been easy? no, because when investing in people's lives and when yours is being invested IN, people are "messy" creatures, all with different personalityies and backgrounds. would I change anythign this semester? No, I would not change a thing. It was one to remember.
I know people who have invested in my life...one in particular who, had she not invested in my life, my life would NOT be the same...Leah...I have no idea if you ever read this or not, but if you do...girl...thank you so much for ALL that you have done for me. Especially for taking the time to get to know me and hang out with me my first year at school. The chats, challenges and conversations will never be forgottten and I am convinced that had u not invested in my life, I would NOT be who I am today. Thank you so very much. You should me the importance of investing in peoples life and the impact taht that can leave and I in turn, have taken that to heart and I know that challenge will stay with me for the rest of my life, now and always. So once again THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! NEVer stop being you!
What about your own life? What, or who, are you living for? yourself? Others? God? My challenge to you today is to step out, get out of your comfort zone and stretch not only yourself, but one other person around you. Look at the people God has placed aroudn you, no matter wehre you are...I am truely convinced that GOd puts people in our lives when he does for a reason....and its up to us to figure out what to do with it...
when I look at where I was when I started going to school...to where I am now...WOW wow WOW! that is what all really comes to mind! I know I have grown and changed in so many ways...the biggest being "People" if that makes sense. let me explain. People have come to REALLY matter to me and I know this may sound crazy and even a little wierd...but there was a point when they didnt. I was 100% content with being by myself but now..though I am still an introvert at heart..have discovered that people really DO make life worth living and oh so much more interesting.
At the start of this semester though...I was once again content with NOT branching out and meeting new people. My heart =just could not give anymore after my summer of meeting new people tehn being forced to say bye and with a lot of them...never see again (thinking Ukraine). I wanted to just hang tou with returning students and reconnect and further those friendships, which is what I was doing and doing just fine for like the first month and a bit of school..but as per usual, God had other plans and that soon changed. Since then I have met AMAZING people at school, have been stretched, challenged and loved by them. has it always been easy? no, because when investing in people's lives and when yours is being invested IN, people are "messy" creatures, all with different personalityies and backgrounds. would I change anythign this semester? No, I would not change a thing. It was one to remember.
I know people who have invested in my life...one in particular who, had she not invested in my life, my life would NOT be the same...Leah...I have no idea if you ever read this or not, but if you do...girl...thank you so much for ALL that you have done for me. Especially for taking the time to get to know me and hang out with me my first year at school. The chats, challenges and conversations will never be forgottten and I am convinced that had u not invested in my life, I would NOT be who I am today. Thank you so very much. You should me the importance of investing in peoples life and the impact taht that can leave and I in turn, have taken that to heart and I know that challenge will stay with me for the rest of my life, now and always. So once again THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! NEVer stop being you!
What about your own life? What, or who, are you living for? yourself? Others? God? My challenge to you today is to step out, get out of your comfort zone and stretch not only yourself, but one other person around you. Look at the people God has placed aroudn you, no matter wehre you are...I am truely convinced that GOd puts people in our lives when he does for a reason....and its up to us to figure out what to do with it...
Saturday, September 27, 2008
So Many thoughts
Wow-what an intense week.
School is going great. Classes are good-hard in some ways-stretching and challenging the way I am thinking in some areas-which is good-its making me aware. THis last weekend was Red Rock and like last year it was lots of fun, great memories and at the same time, heart breaking and unity and kionionia-unity. One thing that i think most people think of when they think "bible college" students, is not how perfect their lives are, but since it is a bible school, it must be shelter and life must be pretty good (I mean come on, if you are at a bible school it must be), but I learnt/realized this past week that it is anything but that. Sometimes being in Bible school is tougher then universtity for that reason-people think life is good, when it could be quite the opposite. Does that make sense?
I came into this year challenge by a friend to yes focus on school work (the acedemic part of it), but to reach out to friends (first years in particular) and to focus on relationships. So that is what I have been doing. It was been totally rewarding thus far and I will continue to do it. That said, it is a lot to handle mentally and all. So for those who read-pray for me.
Another thing is balance-where does that balance come in with new friends, old friends, home, acedemics etc etc. I am also realizing that it is a lot hard this year and I think it has to do in part with being open and sharing right off the hop with friends. Its draining it really is. SO prayer for that as well, for balance.
Oh this thing called life is an interesting ride...I am sure everyone can relate to some extent. I guess this is where Giving it all to God comes in...
yah its been a great week,hard week, rewarding week. God is making me grow, He is stretching me in ways which I never knew I could be stretched, but I thank Him for that.
School is going great. Classes are good-hard in some ways-stretching and challenging the way I am thinking in some areas-which is good-its making me aware. THis last weekend was Red Rock and like last year it was lots of fun, great memories and at the same time, heart breaking and unity and kionionia-unity. One thing that i think most people think of when they think "bible college" students, is not how perfect their lives are, but since it is a bible school, it must be shelter and life must be pretty good (I mean come on, if you are at a bible school it must be), but I learnt/realized this past week that it is anything but that. Sometimes being in Bible school is tougher then universtity for that reason-people think life is good, when it could be quite the opposite. Does that make sense?
I came into this year challenge by a friend to yes focus on school work (the acedemic part of it), but to reach out to friends (first years in particular) and to focus on relationships. So that is what I have been doing. It was been totally rewarding thus far and I will continue to do it. That said, it is a lot to handle mentally and all. So for those who read-pray for me.
Another thing is balance-where does that balance come in with new friends, old friends, home, acedemics etc etc. I am also realizing that it is a lot hard this year and I think it has to do in part with being open and sharing right off the hop with friends. Its draining it really is. SO prayer for that as well, for balance.
Oh this thing called life is an interesting ride...I am sure everyone can relate to some extent. I guess this is where Giving it all to God comes in...
yah its been a great week,hard week, rewarding week. God is making me grow, He is stretching me in ways which I never knew I could be stretched, but I thank Him for that.
Friday, September 12, 2008
2 weeks done!
HEre I am on my first weekend at home since school. Where do I start? SChool has been great, been a lot of fun re connecting with friends and all of that. Classes are awesome. Learning lots and being challenged already. I am in Interpersonal Processes (looking at personality types), Christian Ethics (should be really mentally challenging but awesome) Theology, Cultural Anthropology, and Mission theology and stragety. There have already been trials, but living in community there, reminds me the importance of it-the support that is there. Yah its awesome, liking it lots and lots already. Tomorrow is an early morning-a friends wedding which I am excited for, it just means an early morning but it will be good. Yah I should be doing homework, but an evening off is good!
Friday, August 22, 2008
I've Been Told...
I've Been Told...
I've Been told that 2 comes after 1 and 1+1 is 2.
As a young Kid I was told that once you grow up-you wanna been small again...
THough some days, this is very true, other days I wish I were older....Well still some days I just want time to stop cause I am having too much fun (I guess this is where the contentness comes in)
I've Been told that Life doesnt get easier as you get older, in fact some say harder...though this maybe true, I think life is what you make of it/how you deal with things which occur in your life.
I've been told that maintaining friendships (especially distant relationships) is difficult and require more work- This too, I have come is find is true, however personally I find it easier keeping in contact with friends who are farther away physically, then friends who live near by (this may have to do with a few other factors which I do not care to go into now)
I've Been told that the 3-4th weeks of camp (if you do all summer) are the most difficult. This I will take their word for as I have never experienced a full summer of camp (those which have, is this true?)
I've been told that the second year of school (any sschool potentially, but in my case, second year at SBC) is the most difficult. With that point, it will lead me into a short entry which may have a part two (if I rememember...)
REasons which apparently second year is hardest is because (hopefully) after a stellar first year, you come back sort of expecting it to be the same as when you left, but you forget that the third years are gone and there is a new batch of first years. Buildings change (which will be a case this year with the dorms) so that will be different. New routine of classes. Familiar, old faces, yet faces that may look different then they did four months a go.
I stoked cause a fairly good portion of my class is heading back for year two, however 4 months have passed, things happend, people change, we learn we grow...it will be interesting to see how we have/havent changed. We, as a class, step more into a leadership role of leading the first years (and to some degree the third years) we MIss those who are not back (whether they graduated earlier or are on some other path)
I know for myself, I am excited to return, to catch up. But at the same time, little nervous. I miss last years third years already and the dynamics they brought as a class. How have my friends changed? how have I changed? I know its only 4 months, but still that can be a long, drastic time for some...
Just a few thoughts...
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Thank you's and a challenge
Ok so computer messed up so this is attempt number two for this post. But here is a quick summary of what I had written-I was a part of a conversation this weekend that was on role models and mentorship-either intentially or unintentially. Looking back upon my life and the people who have impacted it-wow there are so many from all areas and walks of life! I know the best thing would be to tell them this personally, but due to some physical distance (as in not living in the area) its tough. THough Family has also impacted me-this will relfect more on the friends throughout my life. But here is a A quick example of mentorship is my little 13 year old brother and this guy heading into grade 12. He was the leader for my little brothers small groups in jr youth (which he loved). Just the time and committment and fun he put into it for that group-sounded like a great time! They acutally had a sleepover this last weekend-I mean really how many grade 12 guys will give up their fridays to hang out with grade 8 boys for a sleepover? I thought it was awesome!
I will start with the first name that pops into my head-
Mrs. Leah Perez! Leah-not sure if you read this-but if you do-thank you! Although I have only known you for a year (not even) what you have shown me and taught me-words can not describe my thanks! I am still blown away at how you, as a third year-took time to connect with me-a first year-this last year at SBC. Our walks and talks-timmy's runs, quarky moments, serious moments-hugs, smiles, all of it. You taught me to be honest with one another-to open up and share worries and thoughts and concerns. You encouraged me my gifts and challenged me to use them for God. You reminded me of my own dreams and destintations and challenged me to never give up on them. My goal for this next year at school- is too connect with a frist year the way you connected with me Leah. I pray that God will allow that! There are days when Belize is just to far! Leah I miss you like crazy! I hope and pray God has Belize in my near future! Thank you so much for everything!
Shelby Rose Third! Shelbs-life was so boring before I met you over a year a go at good ol Holsby! Since then we have gotten to know each other and its been a blast! It feels like I have known you my entire life! Through emails and this past time we spent in ontario and sweden last year-you have challenged me. You have been open and honest with me in your struggles and questions and I thank you for that! Shelbs I see a lot of myself in you in the area of those questions-I too have and continue to struggle with those! Keep looking heavenly and pressing on friend and to quote our good friend Johnny B "See ya at the wedding!"
Lisa Klassen! Oh lisa lisa lisa-when we first met back in grade 7 like I said-you totally intimidated me! Here I thought you were another "brat" and would join the group of "cool" people, but you didnt. I am so glad I got to know you through Ball and become friends! You have been a blessing in my life! My prayer sis! Our talks about God and life have been priceless. You continue to share thoughts and experiences with me and dreams and I thank you for that. I know life isnt always easy, but hang in there! God will use you to do awesome things! I am enjoying working withyou this summer! Always great to see a happy face at work (even when its tough!) Keep on praying friend! Love ya lots
Carleen, Allison, Little Landis and Char! Going into your dorm room at school, always invovled some sort of adventure! Char-I loved our talks and time spent together! Keep your spunk and joy for life! Alli-GO BOMBERS GO! hehehehe-my die hard sask. roughriders fan! What are we to do with you?! jk. Your honesty with me and willinglyness to share-thank you so much! I am eagerly anticipating what next year will bring! Little Landis-always a smile on your face! you challenge me girl-you challenge me to be me-thank you for that. Heres to a great year next year! Carleen! ROOMIE TO BE! I cant wait! We are gonna have a great year! Its been awesome getting to know you! Our love of travel will take us places! Italy sounds great!
Olivia-coffee sometime k? We shared struggles together and there were times when I knew you knew exactually how I felt! Thanks for being someone I could talk to! Really appreciate it! Keep on being you! Hang in there and if you are around steinbach at all next year-come visit! Miss ya
Niki McCorkindale (just so people know I am refering to another niki!) Lets take the dogs out again sometime k? Thank you so much for being someone to confide in! Your honesty about not knowing answers to questions I have given you-at the time annoyed me, but now I am so thank ful for-it showed me I dont need to know everything in life! It is a continuing process-we are always learning! You are an amazing women of God and are doing super awesome things with our youth here in town! KEep up the awesome work! Praying for ya!
Kelsey and Jayne-when I think of Ontario- along with other things- I think of how the weekend was "all about Jayne" and the crazy car rides from Kelsey! You guys challenged me to be me-no matter who I am with or where I am! I am glad you got to see me at a different level. Thank you for everyting
Becca! oh becca! I miss you! I too, saw a lot of myself in you. I feel I could relate to you. We both had our bubbles but we also both managed to invaded each others and become really good friends! I will totally miss you in dorm next year! You HAVE to come visit! Keep being you and remember no ring till you are 20! hehehehe!
Erin-Oh erin-what about you! You have helped me out so much-i dont know where to start! God is and will continue to use you! Keep on letting him! Thanks for being the person I could turn to regarding my inital worries about school, but also thank you for forcing me to get out and make my own connections and not allowing you to be someone I could fall back on if all else failed-I credit a lot of this last year to you for that reason! You are totally in your comfort role as head CGL next year! Keep it up! (though I take not reponsibilty if I cause trouble hehehehe! It was carleen, not me!)
That is just a small list of people-there are so many more- My goal for this next year at SBC and even for camp-is to become a mentor for those around me. To hopefully influence others the way these people have influence me. I can not do it alone. But with God and prayer I can!
Have a great night and a great week!
I will start with the first name that pops into my head-
Mrs. Leah Perez! Leah-not sure if you read this-but if you do-thank you! Although I have only known you for a year (not even) what you have shown me and taught me-words can not describe my thanks! I am still blown away at how you, as a third year-took time to connect with me-a first year-this last year at SBC. Our walks and talks-timmy's runs, quarky moments, serious moments-hugs, smiles, all of it. You taught me to be honest with one another-to open up and share worries and thoughts and concerns. You encouraged me my gifts and challenged me to use them for God. You reminded me of my own dreams and destintations and challenged me to never give up on them. My goal for this next year at school- is too connect with a frist year the way you connected with me Leah. I pray that God will allow that! There are days when Belize is just to far! Leah I miss you like crazy! I hope and pray God has Belize in my near future! Thank you so much for everything!
Shelby Rose Third! Shelbs-life was so boring before I met you over a year a go at good ol Holsby! Since then we have gotten to know each other and its been a blast! It feels like I have known you my entire life! Through emails and this past time we spent in ontario and sweden last year-you have challenged me. You have been open and honest with me in your struggles and questions and I thank you for that! Shelbs I see a lot of myself in you in the area of those questions-I too have and continue to struggle with those! Keep looking heavenly and pressing on friend and to quote our good friend Johnny B "See ya at the wedding!"
Lisa Klassen! Oh lisa lisa lisa-when we first met back in grade 7 like I said-you totally intimidated me! Here I thought you were another "brat" and would join the group of "cool" people, but you didnt. I am so glad I got to know you through Ball and become friends! You have been a blessing in my life! My prayer sis! Our talks about God and life have been priceless. You continue to share thoughts and experiences with me and dreams and I thank you for that. I know life isnt always easy, but hang in there! God will use you to do awesome things! I am enjoying working withyou this summer! Always great to see a happy face at work (even when its tough!) Keep on praying friend! Love ya lots
Carleen, Allison, Little Landis and Char! Going into your dorm room at school, always invovled some sort of adventure! Char-I loved our talks and time spent together! Keep your spunk and joy for life! Alli-GO BOMBERS GO! hehehehe-my die hard sask. roughriders fan! What are we to do with you?! jk. Your honesty with me and willinglyness to share-thank you so much! I am eagerly anticipating what next year will bring! Little Landis-always a smile on your face! you challenge me girl-you challenge me to be me-thank you for that. Heres to a great year next year! Carleen! ROOMIE TO BE! I cant wait! We are gonna have a great year! Its been awesome getting to know you! Our love of travel will take us places! Italy sounds great!
Olivia-coffee sometime k? We shared struggles together and there were times when I knew you knew exactually how I felt! Thanks for being someone I could talk to! Really appreciate it! Keep on being you! Hang in there and if you are around steinbach at all next year-come visit! Miss ya
Niki McCorkindale (just so people know I am refering to another niki!) Lets take the dogs out again sometime k? Thank you so much for being someone to confide in! Your honesty about not knowing answers to questions I have given you-at the time annoyed me, but now I am so thank ful for-it showed me I dont need to know everything in life! It is a continuing process-we are always learning! You are an amazing women of God and are doing super awesome things with our youth here in town! KEep up the awesome work! Praying for ya!
Kelsey and Jayne-when I think of Ontario- along with other things- I think of how the weekend was "all about Jayne" and the crazy car rides from Kelsey! You guys challenged me to be me-no matter who I am with or where I am! I am glad you got to see me at a different level. Thank you for everyting
Becca! oh becca! I miss you! I too, saw a lot of myself in you. I feel I could relate to you. We both had our bubbles but we also both managed to invaded each others and become really good friends! I will totally miss you in dorm next year! You HAVE to come visit! Keep being you and remember no ring till you are 20! hehehehe!
Erin-Oh erin-what about you! You have helped me out so much-i dont know where to start! God is and will continue to use you! Keep on letting him! Thanks for being the person I could turn to regarding my inital worries about school, but also thank you for forcing me to get out and make my own connections and not allowing you to be someone I could fall back on if all else failed-I credit a lot of this last year to you for that reason! You are totally in your comfort role as head CGL next year! Keep it up! (though I take not reponsibilty if I cause trouble hehehehe! It was carleen, not me!)
That is just a small list of people-there are so many more- My goal for this next year at SBC and even for camp-is to become a mentor for those around me. To hopefully influence others the way these people have influence me. I can not do it alone. But with God and prayer I can!
Have a great night and a great week!
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